Did Christmas Even Happen?

It is January 6 and the holidays are over. Is it just me or does it seem like the holidays never happened

? I just didn’t feel the holiday spirit this year and I have no idea why. I mean I got to see my family, be with my friends, open gifts and eat a bunch of Christmas treats. It just didn’t seem all that special this year though.

I sang Christmas songs, I ate cookies, and I opened gifts in excitement but not as much as before. It all just went by in a blur and all of a sudden it’s 2016. I feel like I missed something and I was jipped on the holidays. Many people agree with me saying it really did not feel like Christmas this year. I’m not sure if it was because of no snow on the ground, or maybe it’s because I am growing up.

It’s scary to think about but maybe now that I am almost 17 and working, I don’t have as much time for the holidays. I was checking people out as a cashier one day, studying for school another and the holidays just flew by without me even noticing. I think now that I know (SPOILER ALERT) Santa isn’t real; I just don’t feel as excited on Christmas morning. My brothers wouldn’t even get out of bed this year to open presents. I was excited but inside the spirit was dying out. I am not happy about this. I want my spirit back.

I think a major factor of why I don’t get very happy during the holidays is because my aunt and my grandma aren’t here to share it with me. We used to spend Christmas Eve at my grandparents and then Christmas at my aunts. We opened gifts from our aunt and uncle and from our grandparents on Christmas Eve and ate vegetable soup. Now that they are gone, so are the traditions. We get money instead of gifts. Some of you may think “what’s wrong with that?” I just feel like money has no sentimentality. It’s always way more fun to open a gift you know someone felt was perfect for you. I feel like the biggest reason I don’t feel the spirit anymore is because my traditions are over and I just miss the way my family used to be.

I’m not trying to bring you guys down here; I’m just trying to figure out what is going on with the season and my spirit. I hope you guys had a great holiday.