Losing a Loved One

Two years ago my grandma passed away. She was my best friend and when she was gone I had absolutely no idea what to do or how to deal with it. Then a few months later my aunt passed away. It was crushing to know that two of the most important women in my life were gone. I was a mess, I couldn’t eat, and I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t talk to anyone for almost two weeks. The pain of losing them made me sick. I went for months and months just being sad and not being myself. My grades began to slip and I lost weight from not eating enough. My friends and family were worried about me and always checked if I was ok.

After a while I began to accept they were gone though. I have gotten happier and now I live my life everyday trying to make them proud. It still hurts at times because they aren’t here with me but I know they will always be watching over me and caring about me. I want to tell you guys that no matter how much it hurts to lose someone you loved, it will get better.

When you lose someone it feels like a giant hole in your heart that you can’t fill. I promise you it will not feel like this forever. It will hurt for a while but at some point you will realize that even though they are gone, they are still in your heart. I’m not saying it won’t hurt still. There will be days where something will remind you of them and it will hurt a lot. It will get easier after a while. Those moments of sadness will become less frequent and you will be able to think about them with happy memories.

The pain will go away one day and you will be happy. Trust me; I was stuck in the mood of not knowing how to deal with anything. Once I finally opened up and talked to someone about how I felt I began to feel better. It’s never good to keep your emotions inside. You need to talk to someone about how you feel or it could all build up inside and become destructive. Find someone you trust and feel comfortable with and just tell them what is going on. You will feel a lot better. Losing people is hard, but you don’t have to go through it alone.