Growing Old

In my last post I talked about how I don’t feel the Christmas spirit anymore because I’m getting older. I am realizing more and more lately that I’m growing up. I have a job now, I’ve been driving for almost a year now and I’m looking at colleges. I’ve gotten older, gotten more responsibilities, but I’ll be honest here, it’s exhilarating but also terrifying.

Many people are seriously excited to get out into the world on their own, but I’m a little more timid. I’m scared of being on my own and not making it. Being an adult just seems like a lot of responsibility and work. I’m not trying to sound lazy, I’m just scared. It’s hard to put into words why I’m so nervous about going off to college. I guess I’m just afraid of the unknown in the future.

As I’ve gotten older though, I have figured out a few lessons. From very simple things like how to drive and getting a job to really emotional things. I’ve learned that you need to be careful who you trust and also to never take the ones you love for granted. You will definitely regret it. You learn a lot from experiences and as you get older you have more and more of them. Looking back at my past self, I’ve realized how much I’ve really changed. I’m not that shy, scared girl who never spoke up for herself. I am now a girl who speaks her mind and doesn’t care what people think of her. If someone told my past self that I would be so outgoing in the future, I would have laughed in their face.

So I guess growing up is a very bittersweet thing. You are going off on your own into the unknown, but you’re also learning new things and developing as a person at the same time. Hopefully, a few years in the future I will be happy, and know even more things than I know now. One day we will all have life figured out, at least a little more. Let’s all look to the future and just try to be great people.